much better today

Drank most of my water so far and counting calories, keeping them down. now if I just had the energy to do go work out. I'm cleaning house instead. maybe tomorrow. not beating myself up today, perfection is a myth. later.

no will power at all

Not at all a good week of eating healthy. Next week will be even harder. Then a whole month of not liptacor. grrrr always somethin that seems more important to do. Must make better choices.

DETERMINED

Today I am very determined to treat my body as God's and feed it only positive thoughts and healthy food. Scale wasn't nice to me this morning and reading a book that gives me the scripture to battle my bad behavior with. Goal: to hit 180 lbs by may 14th. Will keep track weekly on weight lost and hurdle i had to overcome to stick with it. Hoping it will keep me accountable until I can find a real person to encourage me. today I burned 800 cals at gym, 1 cup coffee, 3 of 10 glasses of water and strawberry protein shack. will check in tomorrow! bye for now. signed desperate to feel better.

Well it has been quite an eventful week. Ariel is reading, Brian has finally joined the race of life again and I worked my fanny off, I wish. really looking forward to seeing my family on the 10th. Also looking forward to getting back on eating plan and excising no tell how that will feel. Today will be a lazy one as we have no way to go anywhere. probably a much needed break for the oh body and brain. Got to get Ariel ready for the bus catch up soon. boring I know.

I made it but...

My heavens, I delivered 11 tubs of mail on Saturday. We had 12 tubs of magazines alone. luckily we have till Tuesday to be them out so I took 6 of the 12 and am sure wende will get even more today. I think business's are really banking on online orders for the holidays. Job security i guess but boy am i paying for it still. I feel like a slug and don't want to move yesterday or today. whine whine whine. back to the couch I go, hoping to feel like a real person soon.

dreams

I often have dreams about people I haven't had contact in years or people that really shouldn't be in my dreams at all. Ponder, today it was about bro Max C. Silly as it was he was riding a mo-peed to Church on the side walk, I was waiting to make a left into the church parking lot he passed right by me helmet and all. Then halfway through his sermon he fell asleep after losing his place on his notes. weird, I sat straight up in bed after this dream ready to start my day at 533 am. before my alarm. Which is really weird because yesterday kicked my booty at work and I have to do it all over again today, sigh. and I went to bed toooo late. I am so proud of my husband he is taking a leap of faith with his life right now. Please pray that God will work through all three of us to mold our spirit then place us right where he wants us and lets us clearly see His will. Have a great weekend everyone I'll be back on Monday if I survive today.......